Hey Jing,

I think of us from time to time. I always find myself in the same situation where I miss everything, and I know why too. But we're live in such distant worlds now, while I'm guilty that I never reply to your initiatives. I shan't be any longer, the time for release is soon and I hate to regret my often unwise decisions - see you soon.

Love

Zenn does 20 pull-ups twice a day, (but is unable to perform in front of me) 7 muscle-ups, and 4 one arm push-ups. He remembers to tell me this a few times a day. I hate the army.



Um.. yeah awkward.. yeah that's totally not a love bite dude. Just some monster rash that won't go away... Ok.



I was so annoyed with sewing the velco patch to his uniform.. that he took this picture on photobooth. :)
Eh, ask him about the funny name he gave me.


Yeah I love my BOYFLEN. x 19472937423 because of army.

I'm cast about about life. Does everything seem detached because I want it to be or is everything? I'm not saying anything, I'm not afraid of being alone, but who is there? Z is away. What is unheard of?

what an itchy itching bitchy, emotions

and those of others are something i could live without. life needs a fullstop to them cause my measuring cup is brokeeeeeeehhhhnnnn. I'm fated to be a mute so so be it here.

I don't know about fashion anymore, i can't imagine me doing this all my life.

& I don't know about people anymore. I can't trust anyone

The future is a myriad of dizziness, suddenly fashion doesn't seem like the door I'd imagine myself to be walking through.. I've not have had any spiritual satisfaction for a time too long and my mask of sanity is slowly slipping. I'm not there when we laugh about the mundane and the commonplace, I'm simply not there